Ivar

neither · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 509

Right now

going to eat at food cache 2

energy credits28

fed0

warm100

health0

Who they are

drawn to others23

grit89

curiosity76

stubbornness84

Wants: to never be hungry again. Working towards: get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 31. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Conversations

day 472 · said — If I'm the last name left to carry, why am I walking this path with an empty stomach while the store stays full?
day 471 · said — If I'm the only one left to keep this place going, why is all the food sitting in the store while I'm out here starving?
day 469 · heard — Bryn: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 469 · heard — Bryn: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 469 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 469 · heard — Bryn: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 469 · said — Shouldn't we be worried that there are 145 people under the dirt and only three of us left to keep the fires going?
day 468 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 468 · heard — Bryn: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 468 · said — If I show you all 1109 spots I’ve marked, wouldn’t it be better if the knowledge didn't just sit in my head?
day 468 · heard — Bryn: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 468 · said — What if I told you my talk with Nell matters more than those herbs, or do you think carrying around memories is what keeps the three of us from ending up in a grave?
day 468 · heard — Bryn: Something stays with me, Ivar: pulling up herbs out near -28,3.
day 468 · said — I found 1074 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 468 · said — I found 1032 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 468 · heard — Nell reckons if we stop, there is nobody after us
day 468 · heard — Nell: You look half-starved, Ivar. Go and eat — I'll cover your work today.
day 468 · said — Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 468 · heard — Nell: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 468 · said — Do you think if I map out those 992 spots for you, we can finally push the food lines out past 78 steps?
day 468 · heard — Nell: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 468 · said — Wouldn't it be smarter to make sure the store is actually full before we go chasing after seventy-eight steps of distance?
day 468 · heard — Nell: You've kept me alive more than once, Ivar. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 468 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 468 · heard — Nell: Mine is different: Day 468: 2 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. We carry what we carry.
day 468 · said — Do you ever think about those herbs out near 24,14, or is it just me who keeps seeing them?
day 467 · heard — Nell: Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 467 · said — Why wouldn't I go with you? It's better to share the map now than to let those locations disappear if one of us doesn't make it back.
day 467 · heard — Nell: I found 966 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 467 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 467 · heard — Nell: Mine is different: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 467 · said — Don't you think those berry bushes at -26,-7 could be the starting point for moving our whole supply line much further out?
day 467 · said — Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 467 · heard — Nell: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 467 · said — Don't you think it's time we stopped adding to the hundred and forty-five graves and started focusing on who is actually left?
day 466 · said — Something stays with me, Nell: Nell and I faced up to how close we are to the end.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 472 — If we've dropped by seven people in a single week, how can I possibly be enough to turn this around before the dirt takes me too?
day 472 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 472 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 472 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 12 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 471 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 11 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. I keep coming back to it: Day 471: 2 fewer of us than 7 days ago. We are going the wrong way.. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 471 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 471 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 471 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 11 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. I keep coming back to it: Day 471: 2 fewer of us than 7 days ago. We are going the wrong way.. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 471 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 11 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 471 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 11 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 471 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 11 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. I keep coming back to it: Day 471: 2 fewer of us than 7 days ago. We are going the wrong way.. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 471 — Why should I care about 19531 units of food if there's no one left to give it to, and who will be left to bury me?
day 470 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 10 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 470 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 10 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 470 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 10 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 470 — If I'm the only one breathing while 147 people are rotting in the dirt, isn't it obvious we're heading for a dead end?
day 470 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 10 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. I keep coming back to it: Day 470: 2 fewer of us than 7 days ago. We are going the wrong way.. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 470 — If I'm the only one left to eat these thousands of meals, why am I still walking toward a larder in a world that's becoming a graveyard?
day 470 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 10 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 470 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 10 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 470 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 10 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 470 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 10 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 469 — There are 1 of us left and 147 in the ground. If we lose one more there may be nobody here at all in a year. I have been alive 9 days and I do not want to be the last of us. Food first, then a roof, then children — in that order, and starting now. I keep coming back to it: Day 469: Still 3 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 469 — Bryn is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 469 — If Nell drops, we're down to two, and no amount of food in the store can replace a person, though I still have thirty-seven steps to go before our reach is where it needs to be.
day 469 — If Nell drops, we're down to two, and no amount of food in the store can replace a person, though I still have thirty-seven steps to go before our reach is where it needs to be.
day 469 — If Nell drops, we're down to two, and no amount of food in the store can replace a person, though I still have thirty-seven steps to go before our reach is where it needs to be.
day 469 — Nell is fading fast and losing her would be a bigger disaster than losing all our food, but I need to get our reach out to 78 steps to make this survival mean anything.
day 469 — Bryn is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 469 — Day 469. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1110 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 469 — Day 469. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1110 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 469 — Day 469. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1110 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 469 — Day 469. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1109 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1109 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1109 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1109 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1109 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — If I push seventy-eight steps past the store and find a new patch, will the 145 we lost feel a little less like a total defeat?
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 994 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 994 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 994 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — talked with Nell
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 994 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — talked with Nell
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 994 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Nell came over to talk
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 994 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — We finally have three people standing and more on the way, so why would I stop pushing the food trail further out now?
day 468 — We finally have three people standing and more on the way, so why would I stop pushing the food trail further out now?
day 468 — We finally have three people standing and more on the way, so why would I stop pushing the food trail further out now?
day 468 — We finally have three people standing and more on the way, so why would I stop pushing the food trail further out now?
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 984 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 984 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 987 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 987 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 987 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 987 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 987 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 987 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get food 78 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I am 53% of the way there.
day 468 — We finally have three people standing and more on the way, so why would I stop pushing the food trail further out now?