Nell

woman · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 508

Right now

going to eat at food cache 2

energy credits35

fed0

warm94

health0

Who they are

drawn to others39

grit78

curiosity45

stubbornness35

Wants: to be the one they come to when something needs making. Working towards: pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 64. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Conversations

day 469 · said — I am fading fast here, and since I am the only one left to keep the numbers up, it would be a real shame if I died for lack of a snack.
day 469 · said — My stomach is as empty as the wood pile, and I'd really rather not join the 145 today if anyone has a snack to share.
day 468 · heard — Ivar reckons if we stop, there is nobody after us
day 468 · heard — Ivar: I found 1074 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 468 · heard — Ivar: I found 1032 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 468 · said — You look half-starved, Ivar. Go and eat — I'll cover your work today.
day 468 · heard — Ivar: Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 468 · said — Lead the way, then. Having it all in your head is a waste of a good brain, and if I know too, at least one of us will still be standing to use the map.
day 468 · heard — Ivar: I found 992 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 468 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 468 · heard — Ivar: I'd not spend myself on that yet. Get the store full first — then chase it and I'll help.
day 468 · said — You've pulled me back from the edge enough times that I'll follow whatever plan you've got today.
day 468 · heard — Ivar: Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 468 · said — I’m more focused on the fact that we have two new faces this week; as long as the numbers go up, I'll keep working.
day 468 · heard — Ivar: Something stays with me, Nell: pulling up herbs out near 24,14.
day 467 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 467 · heard — Ivar: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 467 · said — I've mapped out 966 spots worth visiting, and I'm not going to be the only one who knows where they are.
day 467 · heard — Ivar: Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 467 · said — I haven't forgotten how close we came to the end, so I'll stay here and keep the walls up while you secure those berries.
day 467 · heard — Ivar: Something stays with me, Nell: picking berries out near -26,-7.
day 467 · said — Unless you want to be the only person left to dig my grave, you should probably share some of that food before I fall over.
day 467 · heard — Ivar: Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 467 · said — If we want to stop burying people, I'll commit to the hard labor of keeping the buildings up while you handle the food supply.
day 467 · heard — Ivar: I still think about the ones in the ground. 145 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 466 · heard — Ivar: Something stays with me, Nell: Nell and I faced up to how close we are to the end.
day 466 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 466 · heard — Ivar: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 466 · said — I'm set on raise a child of my own, Ivar. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 466 · heard — Maren: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 466 · heard — Silas: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 466 · said — Fair enough, Ivar. I'll hold you to it.
day 466 · heard — Ivar: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 466 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 142 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 466 · heard — Fen: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 466 · heard — Fen: I've thought the same. A place isn't a place until somebody is born in it — and more of us means more hands than mouths in a year.
day 466 · said — The numbers are finally going up, so we need to agree on how to keep this momentum.
day 466 · heard — Maren: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 466 · heard — Silas: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 466 · said — Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 469 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 469 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 469 — I am hungry and it is day 469. I think the store has about 19395 food in it, which is 6465.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 469 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 469 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 469 — I am hungry and it is day 469. I think the store has about 19395 food in it, which is 6465.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 469: Still 3 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 469 — Day 469. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1125 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Day 469: Still 3 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 469 — Day 469. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1125 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Day 469: Still 3 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1107 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1107 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1107 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1107 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1107 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1107 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1107 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Ivar came over to talk
day 468 — Ivar came over to talk
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — talked with Ivar
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Day 468: 2 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Day 468: 2 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 468. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 969 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Day 468: 2 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 467. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 957 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to raise a child of my own, and I did it. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 467. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 957 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to raise a child of my own, and I did it. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 468 — Day 467. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 957 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to raise a child of my own, and I did it. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — Day 467. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 957 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to raise a child of my own, and I did it. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — Day 467. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 957 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to raise a child of my own, and I did it. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — Day 467. 3 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 957 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to raise a child of my own, and I did it. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — I am hungry and it is day 467. I think the store has about 19280 food in it, which is 9640.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — I am hungry and it is day 467. I think the store has about 19280 food in it, which is 9640.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — I am hungry and it is day 467. I think the store has about 19280 food in it, which is 9640.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 467 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 467 — If I'm going to bring a new life into a world with only two people left, I should probably eat enough to actually survive the process.
day 467 — Day 467. 2 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 646 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — Day 467. 2 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 646 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — Day 467. 2 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 598 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 467 — Day 467. 2 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 598 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 467 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 466 — Day 466. 2 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 583 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Ivar came over to talk. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 466 — Day 466. 2 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 583 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Ivar came over to talk. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 466 — Day 466. 2 alive, 145 gone, 60 things standing. I know 583 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Ivar came over to talk. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 466 — Ivar came over to talk
day 466 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 466: 2 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 466 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 466: 2 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 466 — Maren is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 466 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 466: 2 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 466 — Silas is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 466 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 466 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 466 — Fen is asking, but I haven't got it to give