Fen

man · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 509

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits25

fed0

warm100

health0

Who they are

drawn to others53

grit79

curiosity47

stubbornness86

Wants: a family of their own. Working towards: pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 6. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Conversations

day 486 · said — I shouldn't have to ask, but I'm running low and nobody has offered anything. Who is holding onto food while I'm out here working on nothing?
day 486 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 486 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 486 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 486 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 486 · heard — Tove: There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 20051 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 486 · said — Tove, I'm down to nothing. Is there anything left in the store?
day 486 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 486 · heard — Tove: It's a good thing to want. Tell me what you need carried and I'll carry it.
day 486 · said — You've kept me alive more than once, Tove. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 486 · heard — Tove: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 486 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 486 · heard — Tove: I'm set on get us through 7 days with nobody buried, Fen. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 485 · said — Fair enough, Tove. I'll hold you to it.
day 485 · heard — Tove: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 485 · said — You think it's a waste of time for me to spend my day hovering over everyone just to make sure we don't bury a fourth person this week?
day 485 · said — Fair enough, Ode. I'll hold you to it.
day 485 · heard — Ode: I'll rest an hour, no more. There's too few of us for me to lie down long.
day 485 · said — You're not well, Ode. Sit. I'd rather lose a day's wood than lose you.
day 485 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 485 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 485 · heard — Ivar: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 485 · said — I keep thinking about the hundred and fifty-six people we’ve buried, and I’m determined that not one more person goes into the ground this year if we can help it.
day 484 · heard — Tove: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 484 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 484 · heard — Tove: I'm set on get us through 7 days with nobody buried, Fen. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 484 · heard — Halla: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 484 · said — Keeping us alive means getting us inside. I'll spend my day hauling materials for a new house since the food store is already full enough.
day 484 · heard — Halla: I'm set on get us through 7 days with nobody buried, Fen. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 484 · heard — Ode: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 484 · said — Fine, but food won't stop the shivering. I'm going to find whatever wood is left and get a roof up before the temperature drops again.
day 484 · heard — Ode: I'm set on get us through 7 days with nobody buried, Fen. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 484 · heard — Tove: Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 484 · said — We have plenty of food but we're out of wood, so I'm going to start hauling materials for shelter before the frost puts someone else in the ground.
day 484 · heard — Tove: I still think about the ones in the ground. 156 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 484 · heard — Silas: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 484 · said — I'd not spend myself on that yet. Get the store full first — then chase it and I'll help.
day 484 · heard — Silas: You've kept me alive more than once, Fen. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 484 · heard — Ivar: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 484 · said — Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 486 — nobody gave me anything
day 486 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 486 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 486 — I am hungry and it is day 486. I think the store has about 20102 food in it, which is 5025.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: asked for help and got none. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 486 — I am hungry and it is day 486. I think the store has about 20102 food in it, which is 5025.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: asked for help and got none. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 486 — nobody gave me anything
day 486 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 486 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 486 — Day 486. 4 alive, 158 gone, 60 things standing. I know 913 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 486 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 486 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 485 — Day 485. 4 alive, 158 gone, 60 things standing. I know 913 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Day 485: 3 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Day 485. 4 alive, 158 gone, 60 things standing. I know 913 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Day 485: 3 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 485: 3 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 485: 3 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 485: 3 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 485: 3 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 485: 3 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Halla is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 485 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 485: 3 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 485 — Day 485. 6 alive, 156 gone, 60 things standing. I know 913 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Bryn is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Bryn is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Bryn is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Bryn is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Bryn is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 484 — Bryn is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Bryn is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 484: 4 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 484: 4 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 484 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: picking berries out near 3,-6. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: picking berries out near 3,-6. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: picking berries out near 3,-6. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 483 — Maren is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 483 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: picking berries out near 3,-6. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: picking berries out near 3,-6. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Silas is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 483 — Bryn is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 483 — Day 483. 7 alive, 154 gone, 60 things standing. I know 826 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: picking berries out near 3,-6. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Day 483. 7 alive, 154 gone, 60 things standing. I know 826 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: picking berries out near 3,-6. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Day 483. 7 alive, 154 gone, 60 things standing. I know 826 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: picking berries out near 3,-6. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 483 — Ode is asking, but I haven't got it to give