Nell

woman · alive · feeling steady · day 595

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits120

fed36

warm100

health100

Who they are

drawn to others47

grit88

curiosity22

stubbornness65

Wants: to leave something standing after they're gone. Working towards: make something nobody here has made before.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 335. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 4 · 1.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 9.

Read at the library: pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; get us through 7 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Ivar showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; have 2 real talks with the others today — I have done this, and I know how; Fen showed me how to bring in 2 loads from the land today.

Conversations

day 595 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 595 · heard — Cass: Day 595 and still standing. That's something.
day 595 · said — How are you keeping, Cass?
day 595 · heard — Cass: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 595 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 595 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 595 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 595 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 595 · heard — Cass: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 595 · said — I'm set on make something nobody here has made before, Cass. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 595 · said — Mine is different: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. We carry what we carry.
day 595 · heard — Cass: Something stays with me, Nell: Day 595: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living..
day 594 · heard — Cass: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 594 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 220 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 594 · heard — Cass: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 594 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 594 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 594 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 594 · heard — Cass: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 594 · said — I'm set on bring in 2 loads from the land today, Cass. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 594 · said — There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23446 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 594 · heard — Cass: Nell, I'm down to nothing. Is there anything left in the store?
day 594 · heard — Cass: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 594 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 594 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 594 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 594 · heard — Cass: Mine is different: helped Nell through a bad day. We carry what we carry.
day 594 · said — Something stays with me, Cass: Cass kept me alive.
day 594 · heard — Cass: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 594 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 594 · said — I'd not spend myself on that yet. Get the store full first — then chase it and I'll help.
day 594 · heard — Cass: You've kept me alive more than once, Nell. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 594 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 594 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 594 · heard — Cass: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 594 · said — I found 2702 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 593 · heard — Cass: I'd not spend myself on that yet. Get the store full first — then chase it and I'll help.
day 593 · said — You've kept me alive more than once, Cass. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 593 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 593 · heard — Cass: There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23373 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 595 — I am hungry and it is day 595. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: helped Cass through a bad day. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — I am hungry and it is day 595. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: helped Cass through a bad day. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Cass kept me alive
day 595 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 595 — I am hungry and it is day 595. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: helped Cass through a bad day. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — I am hungry and it is day 595. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: helped Cass through a bad day. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — I am hungry and it is day 595. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: helped Cass through a bad day. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — gave Cass 2 energy when they were failing
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 595 — Day 595. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I meant to bring in 2 loads from the land today and only managed 0 of 2. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Cass kept me alive
day 594 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — gave Cass 2 energy when they were failing
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Cass kept me alive
day 594 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — gave Cass 2 energy when they were failing
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Day 594. 8 alive, 220 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2702 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — I am hungry and it is day 594. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — I am hungry and it is day 594. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — I am hungry and it is day 594. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — Cass kept me alive
day 594 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 594 — I am hungry and it is day 594. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 594 — I am hungry and it is day 594. I think the store has about 23446 food in it, which is 2930.8 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.