Nell

woman · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 669

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits40

fed0

warm100

health0

Who they are

drawn to others79

grit66

curiosity43

stubbornness57

Wants: to be the one they come to when something needs making. Working towards: eat properly today and end the day strong.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 666. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Read at the library: Fen showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; get us through 4 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Ivar showed me how to bring in 2 loads from the land today; get food 21 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I have done this, and I know how; Cass showed me how to eat properly today and end the day strong; eat properly today and end the day strong — I have done this, and I know how; Ode showed me how to have 4 real talks with the others today; Bryn showed me how to pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands; pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; bring in 2 loads from the land today — I have done this, and I know how; Silas showed me how to pull 2 people back from the edge with my own hands; pull 2 people back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; Tove showed me how to get us through 6 days with nobody buried; get us through 6 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how.

Conversations

day 665 · heard — Ansel: Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 665 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 665 · heard — Ansel: I'm set on have a hand in raising 1 more things that stand, Nell. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 665 · heard — Ansel: You're not well, Nell. Sit. I'd rather lose a day's wood than lose you.
day 665 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 665 · heard — Halla: I still think about the ones in the ground. 252 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 665 · heard — Ansel: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 665 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 665 · said — Mine is different: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 665 · heard — Rook: Something stays with me, Nell: Halla kept me alive.
day 665 · heard — Silas: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 665 · heard — Halla: Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 665 · said — Mine is different: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 665 · heard — Halla: Something stays with me, Nell: helped Rook through a bad day.
day 665 · heard — Silas: Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 665 · said — Mine is different: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 665 · heard — Silas: Something stays with me, Nell: helped Ansel through a bad day.
day 665 · heard — Ode: Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 665 · said — Mine is different: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 665 · heard — Ode: Something stays with me, Nell: helped Halla through a bad day.
day 665 · heard — Rook: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 665 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 665 · said — Mine is different: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 665 · heard — Maren: Something stays with me, Nell: Ansel kept me alive.
day 665 · heard — Maren: I'm not going to last the night on my own.
day 665 · heard — Bryn: I'm not going to last the night on my own.
day 665 · heard — Ode: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 665 · said — Mine is different: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 665 · heard — Ansel: Something stays with me, Nell: Silas kept me alive.
day 665 · heard — Silas: Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 665 · said — There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23043 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 665 · heard — Silas: You look half-starved, Nell. Go and eat — I'll cover your work today.
day 665 · said — There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23043 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 665 · heard — Rook: Nell, I'm down to nothing. Is there anything left in the store?
day 665 · heard — Ansel: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 665 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 665 · heard — Halla: I still think about the ones in the ground. 250 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 665 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 665 · said — There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23043 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 665 · heard — Maren: You look half-starved, Nell. Go and eat — I'll cover your work today.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23015 food in it, which is 2876.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — Ansel came over to talk
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — Ansel is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 665 — nobody gave me anything
day 665 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — Silas is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — Rook is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 665 — Halla is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — Maren is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 665 — Bryn is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 665 — Ode is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — I am hungry and it is day 665. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 665 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 665 — Ansel is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 665 — nobody gave me anything
day 665 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 665 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 665 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 665 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 665 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 665 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 665 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 665 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 665 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 664 — Silas is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 664 — I am hungry and it is day 664. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Silas and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — Maren is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 664 — Bryn is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 664 — I am hungry and it is day 664. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Silas and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — I am hungry and it is day 664. I think the store has about 23043 food in it, which is 2880.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Silas and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: helped Ansel through a bad day. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: helped Ansel through a bad day. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: helped Ansel through a bad day. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — Rook is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 664 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: helped Ansel through a bad day. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — Halla is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 664 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: helped Ansel through a bad day. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: helped Ansel through a bad day. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — Maren is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: helped Ansel through a bad day. What I want for myself is get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I am 88% of the way there.
day 664 — Ode is asking, but I haven't got it to give