Fen

man · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 647

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits88

fed0

warm100

health0

Who they are

drawn to others56

grit53

curiosity58

stubbornness73

Wants: to have a house with a door that shuts. Working towards: bring in 2 loads from the land today.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 36. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Read at the library: get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Rook showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today; have 2 real talks with the others today — I have done this, and I know how.

Conversations

day 615 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 614 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 614 · heard — Ivar: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 614 · said — Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 614 · heard — Ivar: I found 1113 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 613 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 613 · heard — Rook: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 613 · said — I found 769 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 613 · heard — Rook: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 613 · said — Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 613 · heard — Rook: I found 1215 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 613 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 613 · heard — Maren: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 613 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 235 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 613 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 613 · heard — Ivar: Mine is different: I taught Cass Ivar showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today. We carry what we carry.
day 613 · said — Something stays with me, Ivar: I set out to have 2 real talks with the others today, and I did it.
day 612 · said — Fair enough, Rook. I'll hold you to it.
day 612 · heard — Rook: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 612 · said — I'm set on pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands, Rook. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 612 · heard — Ivar: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 612 · said — I'm set on pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands, Ivar. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 612 · heard — Ivar: Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 612 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 612 · heard — Ivar: I still think about the ones in the ground. 235 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 612 · heard — Ivar: Mine is different: pulling up herbs out near -11,3. We carry what we carry.
day 612 · said — Something stays with me, Ivar: pulling up herbs out near -7,3.
day 612 · heard — Cass: Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 612 · said — Mine is different: Nell and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 612 · heard — Cass: Something stays with me, Fen: Day 612: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living..
day 612 · heard — Nell: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 612 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 612 · heard — Nell: I'm set on get us through 2 days with nobody buried, Fen. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 615. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 615. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 615. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 615. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 615. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 615. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 615. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 615 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 615 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — I am hungry and it is day 614. I think the store has about 23205 food in it, which is 2900.6 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 614 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Ivar showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 614 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is eat properly today and end the day strong — I am 0% of the way there.
day 614 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 614 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 614 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 613 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 769 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 769 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 769 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 769 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 724 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to have 2 real talks with the others today, and I did it. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 724 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to have 2 real talks with the others today, and I did it. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 724 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to have 2 real talks with the others today, and I did it. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 724 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to have 2 real talks with the others today, and I did it. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 724 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to have 2 real talks with the others today, and I did it. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 693 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 693 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 693 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 693 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 613 — Day 613. 8 alive, 235 gone, 60 things standing. I know 693 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.