Fen

man · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 648

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits120

fed0

warm100

health0

Who they are

drawn to others61

grit64

curiosity21

stubbornness76

Wants: a family of their own. Working towards: raise a child of my own.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 45. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Read at the library: Cass showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Halla showed me how to eat properly today and end the day strong; eat properly today and end the day strong — I have done this, and I know how; Maren showed me how to raise a child of my own.

Conversations

day 629 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 629 · heard — Ansel: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 629 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 628 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 627 · heard — Cass reckons if we stop, there is nobody after us
day 627 · heard — Cass: You've kept me alive more than once, Fen. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 627 · heard — Ode: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 627 · said — Mine is different: Ansel and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 627 · heard — Ode: Something stays with me, Fen: pulling up herbs out near -34,-15.
day 627 · said — Fair enough, Maren. I'll hold you to it.
day 627 · heard — Maren: Mine is different: Ode and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 627 · said — Something stays with me, Maren: Ansel and I faced up to how close we are to the end.
day 627 · said — Fair enough, Rook. I'll hold you to it.
day 627 · heard — Rook: Mine is different: pulling up herbs out near -7,3. We carry what we carry.
day 627 · said — Something stays with me, Rook: Ansel and I faced up to how close we are to the end.
day 627 · heard — Ansel: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 627 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 627 · heard — Ansel: I'm set on see 9 of us alive here at once, Fen. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 627 · said — Fair enough, Cass. I'll hold you to it.
day 627 · heard — Cass: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 627 · said — I'm set on raise a child of my own, Cass. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 627 · heard — Rook: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 627 · said — Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 627 · heard — Rook: I found 2502 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 627 · said — Fair enough, Ansel. I'll hold you to it.
day 627 · heard — Ansel: Mine is different: Day 627: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. We carry what we carry.
day 627 · said — Something stays with me, Ansel: pulling up herbs out near -11,3.
day 627 · heard — Cass: Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 627 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 627 · heard — Cass: I still think about the ones in the ground. 246 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 626 · heard — Maren: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 626 · said — I'm set on raise a child of my own, Maren. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 626 · heard — Maren: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 626 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 246 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 626 · heard — Maren: Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 629 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Day 629. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2708 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Day 629. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2708 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Day 629. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2708 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Day 629. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2708 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Day 629. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2708 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Day 629. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2708 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Day 629. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2708 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Day 629. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2708 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Ansel kept me alive
day 629 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — I am hungry and it is day 629. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 629 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 628 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — I am hungry and it is day 628. I think the store has about 23841 food in it, which is 2980.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — Day 628. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2658 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — Day 628. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2658 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — Day 628. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2658 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — Day 628. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2658 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — Day 628. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2658 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — Day 628. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2615 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — Day 628. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2615 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 628 — Day 628. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2615 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Day 628: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 628 — Day 627. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2576 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 627 — Day 627. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2576 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 627 — Cass came over to talk
day 627 — Day 627. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2576 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 627 — Day 627. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2576 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 627 — Day 627. 8 alive, 246 gone, 60 things standing. I know 2576 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.