Nell

woman · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 739

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits60

fed0

warm96

health0

Who they are

drawn to others78

grit77

curiosity41

stubbornness63

Wants: to leave something standing after they're gone. Working towards: have 2 real talks with the others today.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 16. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Read at the library: Ansel showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today.

Conversations

day 673 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 673 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 672 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 672 · said — Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 672 · heard — Fen: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 672 · said — I'm set on get us through 2 days with nobody buried, Fen. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 672 · said — Fair enough, Cass. I'll hold you to it.
day 672 · heard — Cass: It's a good thing to want. Tell me what you need carried and I'll carry it.
day 672 · said — You've kept me alive more than once, Cass. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 672 · heard — Ansel: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 672 · said — Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 672 · heard — Ansel: I found 572 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 672 · said — Fair enough, Rook. I'll hold you to it.
day 672 · heard — Rook: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 672 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 268 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 672 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 672 · heard — Ivar: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 672 · said — I found 672 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 672 · heard — Ansel: Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 672 · said — Mine is different: Ansel showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried. We carry what we carry.
day 672 · heard — Ansel: Something stays with me, Nell: Rook showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today.
day 672 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 672 · heard — Tove: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 672 · said — I'm set on get us through 2 days with nobody buried, Tove. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 671 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 671 · heard — Halla: Mine is different: Nell and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 671 · said — Something stays with me, Halla: Cass was born.
day 671 · said — Fair enough, Halla. I'll hold you to it.
day 671 · heard — Halla: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 671 · said — I'm set on bring in 2 loads from the land today, Halla. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 671 · heard — Halla: Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 671 · said — Mine is different: Tove and Halla are mine. We carry what we carry.
day 671 · heard — Halla: Something stays with me, Nell: Nell was born.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 673 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — I am hungry and it is day 673. I think the store has about 23304 food in it, which is 2913.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 818 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 818 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 818 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 673 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 818 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 818 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 818 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 818 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 818 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 807 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 807 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 807 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 673. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 807 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 673 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 730 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 730 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 686 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 686 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 686 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 686 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 686 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 666 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 666 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 666 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 666 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 669 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 669 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 669 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 669 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 669 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 669 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 669 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Day 672. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 669 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 672 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 672 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 672 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 671 — Day 671. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 614 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 671 — Day 671. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 614 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 671 — Day 671. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 606 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass was born. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 671 — Day 671. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 606 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass was born. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 671 — Day 671. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 606 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass was born. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 671 — Day 671. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 606 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass was born. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 671 — Day 671. 8 alive, 268 gone, 60 things standing. I know 606 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Cass was born. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 671 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 671 — Ode is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 671 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.