Fen

man · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 758

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits35

fed0

warm100

health0

Who they are

drawn to others43

grit72

curiosity26

stubbornness21

Wants: to have a house with a door that shuts. Working towards: see 9 of us alive here at once.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 930. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Read at the library: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today; have 2 real talks with the others today — I have done this, and I know how; get food 18 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I have done this, and I know how; Ode showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; Cass showed me how to get us through 4 days with nobody buried; get us through 4 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Tove showed me how to raise a child of my own; Ansel showed me how to bring in 2 loads from the land today; Tove showed me how to bring in 2 loads from the land today; Ansel showed me how to get us through 6 days with nobody buried; get us through 6 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Fen showed me how to get us through 8 days with nobody buried; get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how.

Conversations

day 751 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 751 · heard — Ode: I'm set on make something nobody here has made before, Fen. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 751 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 751 · said — Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 751 · heard — Ode: I found 1203 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 751 · heard — Ode: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 751 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 751 · heard — Ode: Something stays with me, Fen: I set out to get us through 2 days with nobody buried, and I did it.
day 750 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 750 · heard — Cass: I'll rest an hour, no more. There's too few of us for me to lie down long.
day 750 · said — You're not well, Cass. Sit. I'd rather lose a day's wood than lose you.
day 750 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 750 · heard — Ode: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 750 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 750 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 750 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 750 · heard — Cass: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 750 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 307 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 750 · heard — Cass: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 750 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 750 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 750 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 750 · heard — Cass: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 750 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 306 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 749 · heard — Cass: There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 22807 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 749 · said — Cass, I'm down to nothing. Is there anything left in the store?
day 749 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 749 · heard — Cass: Mine is different: Maren reckons if we stop, there is nobody after us. We carry what we carry.
day 749 · said — Something stays with me, Cass: Maren was born.
day 749 · heard — Cass: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 749 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 749 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 749 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — nobody gave me anything
day 751 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 751. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 7818.7 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ode showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 751 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 5864.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 750 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Cass is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 750 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 3350.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 3350.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 3350.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Ode kept me alive
day 750 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 750 — Cass is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 3350.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 3350.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 3350.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 3350.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 3350.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 3350.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Cass is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Cass kept me alive
day 750 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 750 — I am hungry and it is day 750. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 750 — Cass is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 750 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.