Fen

man · alive · feeling hungry · day 740

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits100

fed14

warm100

health100

Who they are

drawn to others43

grit72

curiosity26

stubbornness21

Wants: to have a house with a door that shuts. Working towards: see 9 of us alive here at once.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 768. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 2 · 1.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 10.

Read at the library: Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today; have 2 real talks with the others today — I have done this, and I know how; get food 18 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I have done this, and I know how; Ode showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; Cass showed me how to get us through 4 days with nobody buried; get us through 4 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Tove showed me how to raise a child of my own; Ansel showed me how to bring in 2 loads from the land today; Tove showed me how to bring in 2 loads from the land today; Ansel showed me how to get us through 6 days with nobody buried; get us through 6 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Fen showed me how to get us through 8 days with nobody buried; get us through 8 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how.

Conversations

day 740 · heard — Cass: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 740 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 297 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 740 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 740 · heard — Cass: Mine is different: Day 740: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. We carry what we carry.
day 740 · said — Something stays with me, Cass: Day 740: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living..
day 739 · said — There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23456 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 739 · heard — Cass: You look half-starved, Fen. Go and eat — I'll cover your work today.
day 739 · said — Fair enough, Cass. I'll hold you to it.
day 739 · heard — Cass: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 739 · said — I'm set on see 9 of us alive here at once, Cass. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 739 · heard — Cass: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 739 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 739 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 739 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 739 · heard — Cass: Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 739 · said — There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23456 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 739 · heard — Cass: Fen, I'm down to nothing. Is there anything left in the store?
day 739 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 739 · heard — Cass: Mine is different: helped Fen through a bad day. We carry what we carry.
day 739 · said — Something stays with me, Cass: Cass and I faced up to how close we are to the end.
day 739 · heard — Cass: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 739 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 739 · heard — Cass: I still think about the ones in the ground. 295 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 739 · heard — Cass: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 739 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 739 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 739 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 739 · heard — Cass: Mine is different: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. We carry what we carry.
day 739 · said — Something stays with me, Cass: Cass showed me where things grow.
day 739 · heard — Cass: Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 739 · said — Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 739 · heard — Cass: I found 775 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 739 · heard — Cass: Mine is different: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. We carry what we carry.
day 739 · said — Something stays with me, Cass: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living..
day 738 · heard — Cass: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 738 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 738 · heard — Cass: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Cass: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 738 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 294 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 740 — I am hungry and it is day 740. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 740 — I am hungry and it is day 740. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 740 — I am hungry and it is day 740. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 740 — I am hungry and it is day 740. I think the store has about 23456 food in it, which is 2932.0 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 740 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 740 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 740 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 740 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 740 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 740 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 739 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Cass kept me alive
day 739 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 739 — gave Cass 2 energy when they were failing
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Day 739. 8 alive, 296 gone, 60 things standing. I know 894 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Cass kept me alive
day 739 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 739 — gave Cass 2 energy when they were failing
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Cass showed me where things grow. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 738 — Cass kept me alive
day 738 — asking for food feels like losing something