Nell

woman · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 739

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits70

fed0

warm100

health0

Who they are

drawn to others34

grit32

curiosity45

stubbornness58

Wants: to leave something standing after they're gone. Working towards: see 9 of us alive here at once.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 388. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 2 · 1.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 3.

Read at the library: Tove showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Ivar showed me how to get us through 4 days with nobody buried; get food 23 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I have done this, and I know how; get us through 4 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Ivar showed me how to get us through 6 days with nobody buried; get us through 6 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Halla showed me how to pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands; pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; Cass showed me how to pull 2 people back from the edge with my own hands; pull 2 people back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how.

Conversations

day 739 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 739 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 739 · heard — Ivar: I'm not going to last the night on my own.
day 739 · heard — Tove: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 739 · said — I'm not going to last the night on my own.
day 739 · said — Fair enough, Ode. I'll hold you to it.
day 739 · heard — Ode: Mine is different: I meant to carry 2 loads back to the store today and only managed 0 of 2. We carry what we carry.
day 739 · said — Something stays with me, Ode: Day 739: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living..
day 738 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 738 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Maren: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 738 · said — Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 738 · heard — Maren: I found 1193 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 738 · heard — Ode: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 738 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Ansel: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Ansel: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 738 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Ansel: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 738 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 738 · heard — Fen: I'm not going to last the night on my own.
day 737 · heard — Ansel: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 737 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 737 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 737 · heard — Halla: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 737 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 739 — I am hungry and it is day 739. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 2978.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — I am hungry and it is day 739. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 2978.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — I am hungry and it is day 739. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 2978.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — I am hungry and it is day 739. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 2978.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — gave Halla 2 energy when they were failing
day 739 — I am hungry and it is day 739. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 2978.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — I am hungry and it is day 739. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 2978.4 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Tove kept me alive
day 739 — asking for help feels like losing something
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 739 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ansel kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — gave Tove 2 energy when they were failing
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ansel kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ansel kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ansel kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Ode kept me alive
day 738 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ansel kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Ansel kept me alive. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Cass is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Cass is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Cass is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Cass is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Cass is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Cass is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Ansel is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 738 — Cass is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Ivar is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 738 — Cass is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Cass is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Ansel kept me alive
day 738 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Ansel is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — I am hungry and it is day 738. I think the store has about 23827 food in it, which is 3403.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 738: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 738 — nobody gave me anything