Ansel

man · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 790

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits100

fed0

warm100

health0

Who they are

drawn to others41

grit68

curiosity44

stubbornness44

Wants: to see what is past the far ridge. Working towards: see 9 of us alive here at once.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 54. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Read at the library: get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; have 2 real talks with the others today — I have done this, and I know how; Bryn showed me how to bring in 2 loads from the land today; bring in 2 loads from the land today — I have done this, and I know how.

Conversations

day 760 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 759 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 759 · heard — Nell: I'll rest an hour, no more. There's too few of us for me to lie down long.
day 759 · said — You're not well, Nell. Sit. I'd rather lose a day's wood than lose you.
day 759 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 759 · heard — Nell: There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23183 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 759 · said — You look half-starved, Nell. Go and eat — I'll cover your work today.
day 758 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 758 · said — Fair enough, Ode. I'll hold you to it.
day 758 · heard — Ode: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 758 · said — I'm set on see 9 of us alive here at once, Ode. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 758 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 757 · said — Fair enough, Rook. I'll hold you to it.
day 757 · heard — Rook: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 315 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 757 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 757 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 757 · heard — Tove: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 757 · said — I found 1582 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 757 · heard — Cass: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 757 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · heard — Cass: I still think about the ones in the ground. 315 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 757 · heard — Tove: Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 757 · said — It's a good thing to want. Tell me what you need carried and I'll carry it.
day 757 · heard — Tove: You've kept me alive more than once, Ansel. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 757 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 757 · heard — Nell: Fair enough, Ansel. I'll hold you to it.
day 757 · said — Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 757 · heard — Nell: I found 1815 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 757 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 757 · said — Mine is different: Tove and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 757 · heard — Tove: Something stays with me, Ansel: Day 757: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living..
day 757 · heard — Tove: Fair enough, Ansel. I'll hold you to it.
day 757 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · heard — Tove: I'm set on get us through 4 days with nobody buried, Ansel. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 757 · said — Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 757 · heard — Nell: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · said — I'm set on see 9 of us alive here at once, Nell. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 760 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — I am hungry and it is day 760. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 760: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 760 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 760 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 760 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 760 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23212 food in it, which is 2901.5 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 759 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 759 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 759 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 758 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 758 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 758 — Nell is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 758 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 758 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 758 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.
day 758 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is see 9 of us alive here at once — I am 89% of the way there.