Nell

man · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 807

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits55

fed0

warm100

health0

Who they are

drawn to others52

grit70

curiosity59

stubbornness32

Wants: to leave something standing after they're gone. Working towards: raise a child of my own.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 16. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Read at the library: Tove showed me how to raise a child of my own; raise a child of my own — I have done this, and I know how.

Conversations

day 759 · said — I'll rest an hour, no more. There's too few of us for me to lie down long.
day 759 · heard — Ansel: You're not well, Nell. Sit. I'd rather lose a day's wood than lose you.
day 759 · heard — Ansel: Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 759 · said — There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23183 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 759 · heard — Ansel: You look half-starved, Nell. Go and eat — I'll cover your work today.
day 759 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 759 · said — Fair enough, Cass. I'll hold you to it.
day 759 · heard — Cass: Mine is different: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. We carry what we carry.
day 759 · said — Something stays with me, Cass: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living..
day 758 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 757 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 757 · said — Fair enough, Ode. I'll hold you to it.
day 757 · heard — Ode: Mine is different: Halla and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 757 · said — Something stays with me, Ode: Tove and I faced up to how close we are to the end.
day 757 · heard — Tove: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 757 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · heard — Tove: I'm set on get us through 4 days with nobody buried, Nell. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 757 · said — Fair enough, Ivar. I'll hold you to it.
day 757 · heard — Ivar: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 315 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 757 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · heard — Rook: I still think about the ones in the ground. 315 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 757 · said — Fair enough, Ansel. I'll hold you to it.
day 757 · heard — Ansel: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 757 · said — I found 1815 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 757 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 757 · heard — Ansel: Fair enough, Nell. I'll hold you to it.
day 757 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · heard — Ansel: I'm set on see 9 of us alive here at once, Nell. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 757 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 757 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 757 · heard — Ansel: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 314 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 757 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 757 · heard — Ansel: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 757 · said — I'm set on raise a child of my own, Ansel. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 756 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 756 · heard — Ivar: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 756 · said — I found 1818 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — I am hungry and it is day 759. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Day 759: Still 8 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 759 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 759 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 759 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 759 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 759 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 759 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 759 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 759 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 758 — I am hungry and it is day 758. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — I am hungry and it is day 758. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — I am hungry and it is day 758. I think the store has about 23183 food in it, which is 2897.9 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 758 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Day 758: 5 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Day 758. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1874 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Day 758. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1874 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Day 758. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1874 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Day 758. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1874 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Day 758. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1874 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Day 758. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1874 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 758 — Day 757. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1822 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 757 — Day 757. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1822 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 757 — Day 757. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1820 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Rook and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 757 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 757 — Day 757. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1820 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Rook and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 757 — Day 757. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1820 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Rook and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 757 — Day 757. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1820 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Rook and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 757 — Day 757. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1820 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Rook and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 757 — Day 757. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1820 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: Rook and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.
day 757 — Day 757. 8 alive, 315 gone, 60 things standing. I know 1815 places worth walking to. It is not much yet, but it is more than we had when I got here. I keep coming back to it: I set out to raise a child of my own, and I did it. What I want for myself is raise a child of my own — I am 0% of the way there.