Ode

woman · alive · feeling steady · day 788

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits35

fed32

warm100

health91

Who they are

drawn to others30

grit43

curiosity45

stubbornness89

Wants: to be the one they come to when something needs making. Working towards: pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 203. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 4 · 9.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 7.

Read at the library: Fen showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Halla showed me how to pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands; Fen showed me how to pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands; pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; pull 2 people back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; Tove showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today; have 2 real talks with the others today — I have done this, and I know how; Halla showed me how to get us through 4 days with nobody buried; get us through 4 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Silas showed me how to have 3 real talks with the others today; have 3 real talks with the others today — I have done this, and I know how.

Conversations

day 788 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 788 · heard — Tove: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 788 · said — I'm set on pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me, Tove. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 788 · heard — Rook: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Tove: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 788 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Bryn: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Silas: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Tove: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 788 · said — I found 2053 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.
day 788 · heard — Tove: Mine is different: helped Ode through a bad day. We carry what we carry.
day 788 · said — Something stays with me, Tove: Tove kept me alive.
day 788 · heard — Rook: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Tove: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 788 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Bryn: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Silas: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 788 · heard — Ivar: I've almost nothing left. Can anyone spare me some energy?
day 788 · heard — Tove: Mine is different: Ansel came over to talk. We carry what we carry.
day 788 · said — Something stays with me, Tove: Ansel was born.
day 787 · heard — Silas: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 787 · heard — Tove: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 787 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 323 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 787 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 787 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 787 · heard — Rook: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 787 · heard — Bryn: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 787 · said — Fair enough, Tove. I'll hold you to it.
day 787 · heard — Tove: It's a good thing to want. Tell me what you need carried and I'll carry it.
day 787 · said — You've kept me alive more than once, Tove. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 787 · heard — Tove: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 787 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 787 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 787 · heard — Silas: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 787 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 787 · heard — Tove: There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 23226 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 787 · said — Tove, I'm down to nothing. Is there anything left in the store?

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 788 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Tove kept me alive
day 788 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 788 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 788 — Bryn is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 788 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 788 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Ivar is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 788 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Tove is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Rook is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Tove kept me alive
day 788 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 788 — Bryn is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 788 — Silas is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 788 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 788 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 788 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 788 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 788 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 787 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — Silas is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — Silas is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — gave Rook 2 energy when they were failing
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — Tove kept me alive
day 787 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. I keep coming back to it: Tove kept me alive. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 787 — I am hungry and it is day 787. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 2904.3 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.