Ode

woman · alive · feeling steady · day 790

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits25

fed31

warm100

health95

Who they are

drawn to others30

grit43

curiosity45

stubbornness89

Wants: to be the one they come to when something needs making. Working towards: have 4 real talks with the others today.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 209. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 2 · 9.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 6.

Read at the library: Fen showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Halla showed me how to pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands; Fen showed me how to pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands; pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; pull 2 people back from the edge with my own hands — I have done this, and I know how; Tove showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today; have 2 real talks with the others today — I have done this, and I know how; Halla showed me how to get us through 4 days with nobody buried; get us through 4 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Silas showed me how to have 3 real talks with the others today; have 3 real talks with the others today — I have done this, and I know how; Ansel showed me how to have 4 real talks with the others today.

Conversations

day 790 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 790 · heard — Bryn: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 790 · heard — Tove: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 790 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 325 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 790 · heard — Ansel: I'm not going to last the night on my own.
day 790 · heard — Tove: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 790 · said — I'm set on have 4 real talks with the others today, Tove. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 790 · heard — Halla: I'm not going to last the night on my own.
day 789 · heard — Tove: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 789 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 324 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 789 · heard — Tove: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 789 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Ansel: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Silas: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · said — Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 789 · heard — Bryn: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Rook: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Tove: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 789 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 323 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 789 · heard — Tove: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 789 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Ansel: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Silas: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Ivar: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · said — Fair enough, Tove. I'll hold you to it.
day 789 · heard — Tove: It's a good thing to want. Tell me what you need carried and I'll carry it.
day 789 · said — You've kept me alive more than once, Tove. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 789 · heard — Halla: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Bryn: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Rook: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Ansel: Here — take it. You'd do it for me.
day 789 · said — I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 789 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 789 · heard — Tove: There was food in the store when I last looked — maybe 22300 worth. Go on, I'll keep at this.
day 789 · said — Tove, I'm down to nothing. Is there anything left in the store?

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 790 — Ivar is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 790 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is have 4 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 790 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is have 4 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 790 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is have 4 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 790 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is have 4 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 790 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is have 4 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 790 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is have 4 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 790 — Halla is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is have 4 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 790 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 790 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 790 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 789 — I am hungry and it is day 789. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — I am hungry and it is day 789. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Tove kept me alive
day 789 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 789 — I am hungry and it is day 789. I think the store has about 23234 food in it, which is 3319.1 days for each of us. If I don't eat soon I'll be no use to anyone, so I'm going to find something and take the rest back. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Silas is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Ivar is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Halla is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — gave Bryn 2 energy when they were failing
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Tove kept me alive
day 789 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Ansel is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Ivar is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Halla is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Rook is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Ansel kept me alive
day 789 — asking for food feels like losing something
day 789 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 789 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 789 — Ivar is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.