Ode

man · no longer with them · feeling gone · day 1218

Right now

heading to the larder to eat

energy credits5

fed73

warm89

health0

Who they are

drawn to others66

grit46

curiosity70

stubbornness49

Wants: to be the one they come to when something needs making. Working towards: get us through 2 days with nobody buried.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 0. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 0 · 0.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 0.

Conversations

day 809 · said — I've almost nothing left. Can anyone spare me some energy?
day 809 · said — I'm set on get us through 2 days with nobody buried, Fen. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 809 · said — You look half-starved, Fen. Go and eat — I'll cover your work today.
day 809 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 809 · heard — Fen: Mine is different: Tove and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 809 · said — Something stays with me, Fen: asked for help and got none.
day 809 · said — I've almost nothing left. Can anyone spare me some energy?
day 809 · said — Fair enough, Fen. I'll hold you to it.
day 809 · heard — Fen: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 809 · said — I still think about the ones in the ground. 347 of us didn't make it this far. I'd like this to be the year nobody else goes.
day 809 · heard — Fen: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 809 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 809 · heard — Maren: Mine is different: Tove and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 809 · said — Something stays with me, Maren: asked for help and got none.
day 809 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 809 · heard — Maren: Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 809 · said — I'm set on get us through 2 days with nobody buried, Maren. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 809 · heard — Silas: I've almost nothing left. Can anyone spare me some energy?
day 809 · said — I've almost nothing left. Can anyone spare me some energy?
day 809 · heard — Maren: I've almost nothing left. Can anyone spare me some energy?

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 810 — nothing left in me
day 809 — nobody gave me anything
day 809 — asking for energy feels like losing something
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — talked with Fen
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — talked with Fen
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — nobody near enough to hear me
day 809 — asking for energy feels like losing something
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — Fen is failing. I can carry 0 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 0% of the way there.
day 809 — going over to Fen
day 809 — Silas is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 809 — nobody gave me anything
day 809 — asking for energy feels like losing something
day 809 — Maren is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 809 — going over to Fen