Nell

man · alive · feeling steady · day 1412

Right now

going to check the larder

energy credits120

fed67

warm100

health100

Who they are

drawn to others29

grit40

curiosity61

stubbornness47

Wants: to be the one they come to when something needs making. Working towards: see 10 of us alive here at once.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 247. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 2 · 1.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 10.

Read at the library: Cass showed me how to pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands; Rook showed me how to see 10 of us alive here at once; see 10 of us alive here at once — I have done this, and I know how; Fen showed me how to see 10 of us alive here at once; raise a child of my own — I have done this, and I know how; Bryn showed me how to raise a child of my own; Cass showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today; Rook showed me how to have 2 real talks with the others today; Maren showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Ansel showed me how to see 10 of us alive here at once; how green wood warps and seasoned wood does not; Cass showed me how to get us through 4 days with nobody buried; get us through 4 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how.

Conversations

day 1412 · said — Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 1412 · heard — Nell: Mine is different: Day 1412: Still 40 of us after 7 days. Standing still is not the same as living.. We carry what we carry.
day 1412 · said — Something stays with me, Nell: Ansel showed me how to see 10 of us alive here at once.
day 1406 · said — Fair enough, Halla. I'll hold you to it.
day 1406 · heard — Halla: Mine is different: Cass and I faced up to how close we are to the end. We carry what we carry.
day 1406 · said — Something stays with me, Halla: picking berries out near -2,-8.
day 1400 · heard — Fen: Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 1400 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the next one is standing.
day 1400 · heard — Fen: I'm set on have 2 real talks with the others today, Nell. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 1396 · heard — Nell: Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 1396 · said — Roofs, then. Cold kills quicker than hunger. I'll haul until the drying racks 12 is standing.
day 1396 · heard — Nell: I'm set on read 1 things through and understand them, Nell. Tell me straight if you think that's the wrong thing to be spending myself on.
day 1396 · heard — Maren: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 1396 · said — I've 0 left in me and that won't lift a beam. Tomorrow, first light.
day 1396 · heard — Maren: the drying racks 12 needs 0 wood and 0 stone. Work it with me and it stands before dark.
day 1394 · said — It's a good thing to want. Tell me what you need carried and I'll carry it.
day 1394 · heard — Silas: You've kept me alive more than once, Nell. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 1394 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 1394 · heard — Fen: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 1394 · said — Good. I'd rather do it with you than alone.
day 1394 · heard — Silas: It's a good thing to want. Tell me what you need carried and I'll carry it.
day 1394 · said — You've kept me alive more than once, Silas. Whatever you're set on today, I'm with you.
day 1394 · heard — Tove: I haven't eaten. Has anyone got food to spare?
day 1392 · heard — Maren: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 1392 · said — I've 0 left in me and that won't lift a beam. Tomorrow, first light.
day 1392 · heard — Maren: the meeting hall 7 needs 0 wood and 6 stone. Work it with me and it stands before dark.
day 1392 · said — I've almost nothing left. Can anyone spare me some energy?
day 1390 · said — Then that's settled. I'll see you at it.
day 1390 · heard — Tove: Right. I'll bring what I'm carrying and we finish it.
day 1390 · said — There are 40 of us and 26 roofs. Somebody sleeps cold tonight unless we raise another.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 1412 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: Ansel showed me how to see 10 of us alive here at once. What I want for myself is see 10 of us alive here at once — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1412 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: Ansel showed me how to see 10 of us alive here at once. What I want for myself is see 10 of us alive here at once — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1412 — Forty people and a mountain of food doesn't mean we're winning; I need to see ten of us standing together like Ansel showed me.
day 1412 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have a hand in raising 1 more things that stand — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1412 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have a hand in raising 1 more things that stand — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1412 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have a hand in raising 1 more things that stand — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1412 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have a hand in raising 1 more things that stand — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1412 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have a hand in raising 1 more things that stand — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1410 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have a hand in raising 1 more things that stand — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1410 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have a hand in raising 1 more things that stand — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1410 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50994 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have a hand in raising 1 more things that stand — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1408 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50890 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: pulling up herbs out near -5,-1. What I want for myself is get us through 4 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 1406 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50599 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1406 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50599 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1406 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 1406 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50599 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1404 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1404 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 1404 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1404 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is read 1 things through and understand them — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is read 1 things through and understand them — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is read 1 things through and understand them — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is read 1 things through and understand them — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is read 1 things through and understand them — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is read 1 things through and understand them — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1400 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: Day 1400: 10 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 1400 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: Day 1400: 10 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 1400 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: Day 1400: 10 more of us than 7 days ago. Whatever we are doing, it is working.. What I want for myself is get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I am 50% of the way there.
day 1398 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1398 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1398 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50537 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is have 2 real talks with the others today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1396 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50575 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1396 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50575 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1396 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50575 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1394 — I counted 30 of us before and I count 26 now. The store has about 50505 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: I set out to see 10 of us alive here at once, and I did it. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1394 — I counted 30 of us before and I count 26 now. The store has about 50505 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: I set out to see 10 of us alive here at once, and I did it. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1394 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 1394 — I counted 30 of us before and I count 26 now. The store has about 50505 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: I set out to see 10 of us alive here at once, and I did it. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1394 — Fen is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 1394 — I counted 30 of us before and I count 26 now. The store has about 50505 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: I set out to see 10 of us alive here at once, and I did it. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1394 — I counted 30 of us before and I count 26 now. The store has about 50505 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: I set out to see 10 of us alive here at once, and I did it. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1394 — Tove is asking, but I haven't got it to give
day 1394 — I counted 30 of us before and I count 26 now. The store has about 50505 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: I set out to see 10 of us alive here at once, and I did it. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1394 — I counted 30 of us before and I count 26 now. The store has about 50505 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: I set out to see 10 of us alive here at once, and I did it. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1394 — I counted 30 of us before and I count 26 now. The store has about 50505 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: I set out to see 10 of us alive here at once, and I did it. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1392 — Halla is failing. I can carry 4 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1392 — Halla is failing. I can carry 4 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1392 — Halla is failing. I can carry 4 food. Losing one of us costs the whole settlement more than a meal costs me — I should go and find them. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1392 — nobody gave me anything
day 1392 — asking for energy feels like losing something
day 1390 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50366 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1390 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50366 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1390 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50366 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: Bryn and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1390 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50366 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: Bryn and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1390 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50366 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: Bryn and I faced up to how close we are to the end. What I want for myself is make something nobody here has made before — I am 0% of the way there.