Nell

woman · alive · feeling steady · day 1412

Right now

looking around for anything useful

energy credits120

fed48

warm100

health100

Who they are

drawn to others66

grit51

curiosity48

stubbornness36

Wants: to leave something standing after they're gone. Working towards: read 1 things through and understand them.

What they have done

Lifetime contribution 136. Today: gathered 0, hauled 0, built 0.0, talked 2 · 1.0 energy spent.

Yesterday they scored 10.

Read at the library: Fen showed me how to see 10 of us alive here at once; see 10 of us alive here at once — I have done this, and I know how; Fen showed me how to pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands; Tove showed me how to get us through 2 days with nobody buried; get us through 2 days with nobody buried — I have done this, and I know how; Silas showed me how to get food 22 steps out from the store, so we can go further; get food 22 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I have done this, and I know how; get food 30 steps out from the store, so we can go further — I have done this, and I know how; Maren showed me how to see 10 of us alive here at once.

Conversations

day 1412 · heard — Nell: Right. Nothing gets better while we stand here talking.
day 1412 · said — Mine is more about how we've been stuck at forty for a week, so I'm going to look for anything we can use to actually grow.
day 1412 · heard — Nell: Something stays with me, Nell: Ansel showed me how to see 10 of us alive here at once.
day 1408 · said — Fair enough, Cass. I'll hold you to it.
day 1408 · heard — Cass: Then show me. Two of us knowing it is better than one, and if I go under the places don't go with me.
day 1408 · said — I found 1726 places worth walking to. I'll show you where, then it isn't only me who knows.

Inside their head

Private. Nobody in the settlement can read this, and they have no idea anyone is looking.

day 1412 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50984 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is read 1 things through and understand them — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1412 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50984 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is read 1 things through and understand them — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1412 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 1412 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 1412 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 1412 — Stop hoarding. Food in the store keeps nobody's name alive — children do.
day 1410 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50984 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is see 10 of us alive here at once — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1410 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50984 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is see 10 of us alive here at once — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1410 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50984 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is see 10 of us alive here at once — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1408 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50885 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is pass what I know to 1 of them, so it outlives me — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1406 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50604 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: picking berries out near 45,35. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1406 — I have tried to sit with somebody and talk it through 2 times now and we are worse off after it. I am done with that.
day 1406 — I have tried to sit with somebody and talk it through 2 times now and we are worse off after it. I am done with that.
day 1404 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50256 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1404 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50256 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1404 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50256 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is bring in 2 loads from the land today — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50256 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is see 10 of us alive here at once — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50256 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is see 10 of us alive here at once — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50256 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is see 10 of us alive here at once — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1402 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50256 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is see 10 of us alive here at once — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1400 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50272 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1400 — Nobody is telling me to. I want to know what's past all this.
day 1400 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50272 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. What I want for myself is pull somebody back from the edge with my own hands — I am 0% of the way there.
day 1398 — I counted 40 of us before and I count 40 now. The store has about 50272 food in it and we are no more than we were. Piling it up is not the same as growing. What we need is children, roofs for them, and food left out in more places so we can live further out — not a bigger heap in one shed. I keep coming back to it: I set out to see 10 of us alive here at once, and I did it. What I want for myself is put 20 solid stretches of work into something standing today — I am 0% of the way there.